18th July Friday Cloudy

Hi,
It was March when I last updated my blog. Ha! I am just too lazy to log in and update my blog. After viewing blogs of others, I feel that mine sux. Haha. Simply sux. Too dull, too serious... 2 weeks from now will be my prelims. 2 months from now will be my a levels. 4 months from now, I will be in NS. Life just keeps on moving, depriving you from any rest. I have alot of things to say, but this isnt the right medium for me to express them out. haha..
kk
See you

What I am feeling...

Many things had happened the past few days. Be it in school or at home, all these things had sparks spiralling thoughts in my mind.
What had I actually done that is worth people's praises?
Why are people in this world behaving in such bias ways?
Cant there be any fairness in this world?
There is no greater unequality than the equal treatment of unequals.
Haiz
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Gan Chu Liang Duo!!
Someone SAVE me!!

What is wrong?

Friday, erratic weather. Rainy and sunny.
Many things happened in school. Many things.
People do change. I also changed. Everything changes.
I am super tired. Homeworks, STaR synposium, CCA, SSEF, meetings, and most importantly Common test.
I am feeling so sucky right now. Super sian. Sense of loneliness, alot of things just cant be explained. Issue involving my studies, my life, my CCA, etc... There are really many things that i am confused and puzzled. Can anyone pls enlighten me.
I dont wish to make the same mistakes all over again.
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Sunday=Hot/Sunny/Tireing/ Sianz...

Today ar... So hot, sunny and sian... I dont know what had gotten into me.. This weekend super sian. Also dont know why. No adrenaline rush in me. Nothing at all. No driving force in me. Totally nothing. I was soooo Sian... Tried smsing ppl, still so sian.... Try msn, still so sian... I have been waiting. waiting.. waiting... I am still waiting to start a conversation with someone that is willing to talk to me.. Haiz...
This weekend... I break record liao. Did alot of homework. At least to my ability, i did a lot:) Something to be happy about... However, super stress sia this weekend. Also dont know why... Stress from family, sch and MYSELF... Haha..
ai ya.. Some things cannot be describe in words. Just dont know how to put it...
Cheers
CYA

Thursday, 2nd day after Valentine's Day and 1 day b4 Road Run

Long time never come to blog le. Haha. Nowadays, not much appetite. Also dont know why. Haiz. BMI is 16 le-> considered as severely underweight! Haha. What should I do? hmmm...

2nd day after Valentine's Day le. Haha. As usual, nothing different this year. Am wondering, why must ppl give flowers, presents on V-Day? Is it a rule that presents and flowers need to be exchange or given on V-Day? How about the rest of the year? Dont need give? Haha.. Life is just----- Like this?! Haha..

Tomorrow is road run. I damn sian le la. Also dont know why. These few weeks, dont even know what happened to me. I am like totally detached from this world, totally lost. Lost interest in almost everything. It was like so what if this thing happen? So what if i dont do this and that? I just dont know what had gotten into me. Sometime I think I should just remain as a quiet and inactive boy like in Secondary Sch. Haiz. But what to do, with great power lies great resposibility?! Haha.. Haiz..

Met alot of ppl, in sec sch, NJC year 1, NJC year 2, alot la. But most on them , I met them online on MSN messenger. Brought back some memories. Spices up my boring life. Alot of emotional feelings. Numerous thoughts went through my mind, but I think that I am just thinking too much.. Haha
Okay. I shall continue sianing..
CYA

Chu 2.. 2nd Day of Chinese New Year

Long time no see....
Long since I posted a message here.
It was long...
Well, nothing much has changed.
Hectic school life.
Filled with frustration, wonders and excitement.
I admit that school is fun.
Definitely fun.
Not lonely.
2 days ago, Chinese New Year Eve.
Everything was going and happening weird.
Not even a single sense of joyfulness in me.
It does not seem like Chinese New Year to me.
Total sianess engulfed me.
Dont know why.
Just SIAN.
At around 12 midnight, received some sms that brighten my day.
I havent had this kind of feelings long time ago.
Warmth, surprise, and ...
Now, 2nd day of Chinese New Year.
Still the same.
Same old me.
BUT with another different drive in me.
Difficult to put it in words.
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Cheers

The day after attachment

Saturday, sunny day.
First day after attachment. Still alotof work to be completed. log Book, reports, forms, etc.
Met alot of ppl during my attachment. Ppl older and of the same age as me. Ppl from local university, ppl working in ICES, and ppl who are research scientist,research engineer and research fellow. Great fun during this period of attachment. Real great fun. However, all things need to come to an end. Sadly, it ended yesterday. Ha... Miss alot of ppl there.
Haiz...
cheers